Hey,
It’s been a while since i blogged something. But here’s the good news, i got happily married on the 10th Feb, 2017. Since then, i have been dealing with all the changes of my life. Looks like I’m counting the “First time” experiences and surprises that serve my way each day.
Small things?
She cradled the baby,
through the night with a smile.
held her tiny nibbling fingers
And walked me through.
No sooner did she start to bawl,
when her mother spaced out of sight
into the silent darkness.
I have got lost in the crowds,
as time passed.
Now it’s turning tables.
I’m on my own.
How unfortunate that an event of wedding, makes a woman realize the endless love for her mother. And that love swells up after every hardship that she faces. I do miss her, in the silent sobs of the night. Only the pillow talks could hear the secret conversation.
Dear Mom,
After the day’s work, I quickly slipped into something more comfortable. My feet dragged itself to the window, and envisage the beauty of nature. The moment was perfect, my hands held a hot cup of caffeine that melted on my tongue sulking under the surreal ducking sunset.
My eyes glanced at the pile of things lying around my room. Well, they were strong enough to drag me into nostalgia. It was like bagging 26 years of memories into small boxes and suitcases. The breeze drifted me into thoughts that were never experienced, until now. I was overwhelmed and was left in awe with a parade of mixed emotions. All I could say then perhaps was, “I know, I have to leave. But I don’t wanna go.” It was indeed one of those rare days when my heart and mind wanted different things.
Then, I remembered the conversation I had with my mother months ago, “ why does a girl have to leave her home after marriage? The only answer I always got was, “it’s a tradition.” I was never really convinced about the answer but I now realize that it’s just a tradition to make you grow into a beautiful, strong and a real woman.
Here I’m married and moved in with my husband 3 days back. Life here is so different now, “That’s because I don’t have you here, maa. And I’m about to accelerate my horses on the runway to start a new adventure and my own journey.”
And here’s my journey………….
My eyes dread to open, at the morning sunshine. I have no more excuses left to snooze my alarms. The day starts, where I lean onto the kitchen platform. Rubbing my sleepy eyes and staring at the boiling milk and eggs.
As I come back to my senses, my brain starts to wheel out the innumerable activities lined for the day. It starts right from cooking meals to cleaning the house. I get to glide behind a maid to ensure a dust free and a clean environment. At times step out my lazy legs to shop veggies in the evenings and of course play with dogs. The look in their innocent eyes, makes me fall in love with them.
I switch onto the favorite music on my Bose speakers, just to lighten up the air. My feet take the flight, dancing along with the beats. I sing along to the familiar notes amongst the unfamiliar chores of cooking. In search of a feeling that erases the chaos of my mind and heart.
I slowly open the fridge for a sneak peek into the vegetable basket, to plan the menu for the day. I frantically pick the phone and give a call to my mom, “What do I cook? There’s nothing in the fridge.” She calms me down with her soothing words and gives me her recipes to cook.
The scribbled words I managed to pen down on the notepad, guide my movements across the kitchen. I carefully read & re-read to avoid goof- ups and start to chop the veggies, (oh! At times even my fingers . :P) and fry them in the pan. My hands reflect signs of an amateur cook. They look scrapped and choppy with cuts and burns all over them.
The delicacy gets prepared, But nothing in comparison to my mom’s food. Something is a miss, probably a special ingredient of mom’s special recipe. It takes me back to my home sweet home.
The toughest days are the days when I’m unwell and dragging my feet to make things work. That’s when I miss her elegant hands that move too and fro on my head. Her soft fingers tugs me inside the fresh soft blankets and makes me drift to sleep. And I could hear her say in my sleep, “Don’t worry, I’ll take care of everything.”
Somehow never realized till now that mom is the hardest working person in the family.They take care of minutest details only to ensure our routine flows without any hurdles. Yes, their world revolves around us “The family”.
And in this fast paced life, we really do forget to appreciate and adore small things in life.
Here’s a small thank you letter for making me what I’m today. I never appreciated the small things you did for me. But today I thank you for all the small things that you did for me & taught me with perseverance. Words are the only way I can express what you mean to me. Probably even fall short of them to pour my heart out.
Thank you maa for everything.
Regards
Your loving daughter
PratZ
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Thank you so much 🙂
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Happy married life💐💐💐 you have written this so beautifully..I was carefully scrolling down slowly ensuring I don’t miss any line.Loved the flow. Wonderful dedication to your mom. Mom’s love is the best.👍
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Thank you so much Jeni 😍 Really glad you liked it 🙂
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Did I have tears on my eyes.
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Aww thank u sweetie. I surely had tears
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I don’t want u to cut your fingers,you work when you are sick..is it so hard sister?
I loved the post.I can’t help but worry about you.
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Well you have no option when you have to manage things 😛 but now I gave become an expert. 😀 no more cutting of fingers. Hehe love u miss u
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miss u too sister
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You are a great woman
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Congratulations Pratyusha.
In this post really you have opened your heart.. your love for your mom will always be eternal.
But I must tell you that your post has made me worried about my post marriage life..keep sharing your experiences.. bachelor girls will be prepared😉😉
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Hahaha sure !!! I would sharing that 🙂 Be Prepared 😎😅
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All nubile ladies attention please…Ha ha😉😉
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Congratulations my love for having this married life. I want you to cherish it the best.
And I remember, you sent me that thing after writing it, on whatsapp. It’s sounds so so true, the sacrifices and all.
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Thank u so much baby 😍😘😘
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Oh baby this is so beautiful..😙
I am so proud of the wonderful woman you are. I am lucky to have found you my lovely sister.. i love you P
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Thank you so much B 🙂 love you too Bhuvi muahhhhh 😍😘
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I love you moreeeee
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🙂 ❤💘💓
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😍😘😚😙😁😂😊😋😉😄😆🙃😝😜😛🤓😈❤✌
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Dear Piku.. I must say dearest.. You know what I wish to say.. You know we walked through the same path same time.. And this blog is my twin.. Really!! I wasn’t even able to put it down in my blog.. I really don’t know how I m managing.. Its all robotic and whenever I comes to real life my eyes gets welled up.. I miss my home and mom.. I miss everything.. Four months and I m still struggling not to miss her.. I know you know all my feelings very well.. So nothing more about this.. You made me cry, really sob!! This one was great honey.. We love you Maa.. ❤️
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Thank u so much Nimi. ..I sure understand your feelings. And emotions you are going through .even I’m struggling to not miss home. But I feel an emptiness..and comes out as irritation..frustation and sadness. Basically still not able to move on. I love u sweetie. We love u maaa
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Very nice pratyu…..
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Awwww😍😍😍😘☺
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hmmm…you know I always say to people girls are closer to their dad’s till they aren’t married but she get really close to her mother after she get married 🙂 3.5 years back ..I walked down the same path 🙂 but still there are days when you just need mom 🙂 you miss sleeping on her lap 🙂 you miss her caressing your hair 🙂 you miss her smell 🙂 you miss everything about her 🙂 that’s how each day of your married life tends to grow your bond stronger with your mom 🙂 I think we walk out of house so that we can peep into our mother’s soul and walk with her as friend 🙂
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It’s so true !!! Well said 🙂
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:)thanks 🙂 so hows married life going on ? Have you started working again?
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Welcome to being an woman Pratyusha.
All the best to your journey and always hoping you set an example to people around you.
Be hopeful and cheerful.
Eat well and take care of yourself, for there is a long journey lined up ahead of you.
To Life !
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Thank you so much Bhanu for the well wishes 🙂 means a lot !
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What a beautiful dedication to your beautiful Mom!!! ❤ I loved all your words you did such a lovely job with everything! She must be very proud of you Pratyusha, just like you are of her ❤
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Thank you Jen Jen 😊😊😊
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Most welcome love 💖💖💖
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Congratulations!!! Have a blessed and happy married life…….your mom will be proud! 🙂 🙂
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Thank you so much 🙂
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You are very welcome……..I was wondering where you vanished……now I know you were found! 🙂
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Haha ya. Trying to get back to schedule 🙂 how have you been ?
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Been good……….my schedule is also a big mess……but nothing exciting like yours! 😀
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Hahaha 😀 it sure is exciting and tiring …with so much of work.
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I won’t say it gets better or you will get used to it………I see my mother still working hard and forcibly refusing any help and yet tired as hell…….it hurts me but its worth it to her…..I can’t believe otherwise and be okay……and btw……every new beginning requires a lot of work…..you have my best wishes and prayers!
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That’s so true !!! Every beginning requires lot of patience and hard work. And thanks a ton for the best wishes 🙂
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You are most welcome! 🙂
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I went too serious, didn’t I?
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You did , but it’s OK to be serious 🙂
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I always realize afterwards……..I still need to work on it……. 😛
Looking forward to more exciting post marriage posts!!! 🙂
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Hehe will come up with some more 😂😎
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You must! 😀 😀
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Good work! 😊
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Congrats on the marriage! And peace and blessings to you and yours ✌
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